I’ll call it a comeback. A take my life back. A back to accountability mindset. A shift. A determination.
Executive Dysfunction. It’s been controlling me since the mid 1980s (y’all, that big birthday comes this summer and I. AM. NOT. READY… anyway, back to executive dysfunction). If you know, you know. If you don’t relate, I don’t think I can do anything to spell it out appropriately. It’s real. It’s intrusively debilitating. It’s exhausting. It’s the reason I touch base after 5-6 weeks instead of as often as I write a blog in my head (is that weird? That I write them while driving to work, but the thought of sitting down to type the entry is too overwhelming to do IRL?). I put off everything—even personal care. I’m like the fat, sloppy version of Scarlet O’Hara “I’ll think about that tomorrow…”.
But I’m here today. I’m doing it. I mean, I still didn’t wash my hair or my face or anything this morning, so I’m not doing it all, but I just meant I’m writing this entry today.
I have discovered one of my *many* triggers of a dysfunctional exacerbation. It’s when a client comes in upset because when she was at another facility for a different service, they repeatedly tried to tell her she should do her weight-loss program through them instead of here. Despite being happy here (and telling them so) they continued to try to sway her. She wasn’t happy. They lost a client; I didn’t. But sometimes, that tactic works. And it’s just mean.
I’m like the Santa from Miracle on 34th street. I’m referring people all over town! I have colleagues, competitors, mentors, just general industry geniuses that we send clients to every day. It’s a teamwork situation where we work to get the client the best care, results, and products they need—even if it lines a different business owner’s pocket. I love supporting local businesses and I will continue to do so. Some of the equipment and advanced services available in Owensboro are super cool—why would I not want to tell people about them? We don’t do it here, so go do it there! I mean, even I go and get services from other people and it’s fun to connect!
But everyone is different and business is hard. Ownership can be lonely (again, it’s one of those if you know, you know situations). So when something like this happens—or at least when I’m told (which is often, unfortunately) it just makes me kinda sad. I shut down a bit and I let everything start to pile up while I comfort myself with a good One Tree Hill binge day. (If you’re wondering, I’m clearly aware that this is not the most constructive process.)
Tough skin, though. Right? Don’t take it so personally. That practitioner doesn’t even know me. It’s not about me.
It’s all personal.
I refocus to my own intentions, my own growth, my own goals for myself and Integrated.
Speaking of referrals. I must share what I started this week! I struggle with nutrition not because I’m overeating, but because I refuse to cook or plan accordingly and end up DoorDashing junk food. So, I enlisted the help of Lexi Carter through Carter’s Cuisine. Y’all. These meals were great! Now, I didn’t give her any dietary restrictions (only told her I hate cucumbers, peas, beans, and spicy food) so I wasn’t looking for specific macros content or anything. I just wanted to see the difference of eating pre-portioned, home-cooked meals versus every single meal from a restaurant (no worries, I will continue to support them, too!).
It’s just so easy and actually ends up saving me money! I didn’t get a single repeated meal (I ordered 10) and was able to get a good sample of what she offers. I’m committed to this new way to eat and even Tony enjoyed a couple (that he stole from me because again, I’m not doing any cooking).
The best part is her intake form where you select your budget, types of foods you want, allergies, dislikes, goals, etc. and she creates a customized plan for you AND delivers!! (I don’t pick things up; I have a strong mental block that prevents me from being a normal errand-runner.) So if you’re interested in some meal prep, I definitely recommend reaching out to her to see if it’s a good fit! (Nope, this isn’t a paid endorsement; I really just like to support people who treat me well and I think this gal is fantastic.)
Oh, you’re just here for a weight loss update, probably…
Starting weight: 324 lbs
Current weight: 272.6 lbs
Total loss: 51.4 pounds!!!!! (If you remember, I’ve been eyeing 50 as my first major scale goal.)
*I’ve lost 6 pounds since last month’s entry, I think. Nearly half of that was just this week.*
Getting some results after a slower few weeks is so motivating. I’m actually sitting down with our resident nutritionist next week for my first official consultation (that is long overdue). I’m excited to finally take advantage of the education she can offer that so many of our other clients have started to utilize with great success. (Feel free to schedule with Krista Clark for a consultation if you’re interested in some food help!)
Okay, I’m off to tackle more of my overflowing pile of responsibilities that I shirk in the face of mental anguish.